Journal Entry May 5th
So I went back home to Toxian today. Weird to see myself word it like that. I really don’t have a home, not of my own anyways. I have people that I consider touchstones that give me an illusion of being home but I haven’t really felt I was home since Momma and Poppa died, yet still for a brief moment I at least regain that illusion, that feeling of being cradled in a blanket of warmth and safety when I see my angel man Gabriel, or hug my sister Vishous.
Vishous. Vishy. V. She is my sister, my best friend, the only family I have left now with Wicked and CJ so far away. Yet last night I almost lost her also. Stupid! So flipping stupid. Two vamps trying to get a meal and they picked my little sister. She resisted of course, trying once again to step between me and danger. She feels the cloak of the guardian upon her shoulders and nothing I say or do will deter her from her vows. But the vampires, they were older, more experienced and managed to overtake her. I was useless. I tried. Oh lord I tried. I sometimes wished I were more like my sister, more able to grasp the blade and walk the path of the warrior. If I had been able to do that maybe I would have been able to save Vish. Save Momma and Poppa. Save myself. But I just lay there on the dirt, my lifeblood slipping into the ground, and once again watched someone I love taken from me. Shadows and Righteous both battled to save her, and 5 warriors were wounded. I managed to stumble to her side, try to imbue her with as much of my own powers as I could, but my efforts were like a child battering at a giant. I am not sure what will happen next, but I must make changes in the pattern that is being woven now. I feel a sense of doom, an ill wind in the air. Vows were taken and I must make sure that fate’s scissors clip the right life string when all is said and done. I won’t allow it to be my sister’s. I must make sure that certain pieces of this chess game are moved to new places on the board, and ensure my sister’s safety. I must find Poncho and the Shadow Prince.
Your Will Goddess
So Mote it be.